Hey, you know what I learned this year? I learned that it’s just as important to be patient with yourself as it is to be patient with others. We all spend so much energy ruminating over what we should fix, mulling over our inability to reach the ideal self. And, I gotta tell ya, if you’re like me, just give yourself a BREAK.

I like to think of myself as two separate people sometimes: one that is my higher-self, the rational, high executive-level functioning being; and one that is my instinctive, impulsive self. It’s like separating the conscious part of your being from your animalistic part. 

Separating my two selves allows me to not get so down on myself when I’m not fulfilling my shoulds. I treat my impulsive self like a child; it’s immature and in need of training, but I love it all the same. I didn’t just pull this out of thin air, I truly feel sometimes like there’s another me. It’s like when i think back and go “fuck, what the fuck was i thinking saying that?”

I’ve learned to WITNESS myself react wrongly or do stupid things in a way that allows me to observe my wrong behaviours and possibly correct them in the future, but not in a way thats blaming or hurtful. It’s that funny balance between changing what you can change and accepting what you can’t. Everyone’s got their own emotional triggers, addictions, tendencies that are very difficult to overcome. Difficult, but not impossible. Patience.