gosh, you know, I’m really afraid of thinking wrong. Like, going through life with the wrong perspective only to realize years later that I got it wrong. What if there’s enlightenment somewhere buried in my thoughts and i just haven’t uncovered it yet? What if there’s some truth there that I don’t quite understand but that will make coping with life a whole lot breezier when I do? 

It’s these kind of thoughts that don’t let me put my thinking aside to allow space for more productive activities. I have it stuck in my head that i have to know NOW, that I have to have it all figured out NOW in order to face life properly. I know people say life is a learning experience, but fck, when do you get to use the lessons you’ve learned if you finish learning on your death bed? 

But I guess what it all comes down to is acceptance. Plain and simple: nobody comes out of the womb with a cheat sheet for life. You just have to sort of feel around blindfolded until something comes along that makes you see. Most things are learned in practice. Contemplation is good, but it can be time consuming and destructive if you start spinning your wheels on the same thoughts. Take contemplation about life and treat it like a long-term project: you can’t figure it all out now, but you can work on it, little by little, when you have time. 

Learn to accept that you can’t always know NOW.