February 2012
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word vom. sorry
the thing is, i never thought id end up with him anyways. i was just waiting, as i often do, for him to turn into the person that i wanted him to be. and that’s not fair. although, he was doing the same to me.
i was clinging with all that i had to … to what? i’m still clinging though, and 4 months later, i haven’t fully understood what it is that I’m clinging to.
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“Either you think, or else others have to think for you and take power from you,...”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald (via annaginn)
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life-changing thoughts.
i just had a moment of realization… i’ve been going through my life, every day, in fear. every day i fear feeling. every time i rationalize, every time i ruminate, every time i worry, I’m literally trying to block myself off from FEELING. when i come upon a difficult time, whether its about a relationship, or someone dying, i obsessively delve into the problem like a scientist,...
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about that egotistical asshole who you've always...
I see the ego and arrogance as weakness. It just shows that a person is afraid to face their vulnerability. An egotistical person refuses to accept that they are just another one of the millions of human beings on this planet.
We all fear death. The fact that our life is so fleeting drives us to want to find something that tells us our life MEANT something, that we impacted the world in some way...
Dear Coke Talk: On struggling with mortality. →
dearcoketalk:
Dear Coquette,
I struggle to accept my own morality and have become obsessed with the work of Aubrey de Grey. I am even counting on his research succeeding within my lifetime, and I think this expectation is unhealthy. I know you just recently covered mortality, and while I’m not having…
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getting overwhelmed with all the "shoulds" in life
hey, you know what i learned this year? that it’s just as important to be patient with yourself as it is to be patient with others. we all spend so much energy ruminating over what we should fix, mulling over our inability to reach the ideal self. and, i gotta tell ya, if you’re like me, just give yourself a BREAK.
i like to think of myself as two separate people sometimes: one that is my...
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boo hoo
aaarrgggg that shitty feeling of not being a part of something amazing.
fuck, i see pictures of my ex with this new girl, and they look happy. and i know I’m not meant to be with him… we would have never worked in the long run, but it still kills me to see him happy. is that fair? probably not. but as much as i try to deny it, fuck, it would be nice to truly care for someone like...
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the death of Ashton Howe: Denial of solid ground →
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Gasped breath turned stale in the back of my throat, sour, a metallic regurgitation of past heartbreak tossing my innards into knots, certainty into denial of solid ground all over again. The sun through half-closed blinds intruded — as I, too, had so clearly intruded upon your unlit secret. Your…
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the plain and simple of accepting life how it is
gosh, you know, I’m really afraid of thinking wrong. Like, going through life with the wrong perspective only to realize years later that I got it wrong. What if there’s enlightenment somewhere buried in my thoughts and i just haven’t uncovered it yet? What if there’s some truth there that I don’t quite understand but that will make coping with life a whole lot...
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GPOY on Super Bowl Sunday
Okay i’m going to sound like a total prick right now, but I have three guys on the go and I gotta cut em all loose. Fck, you know, they come at you when you don’t want them.
I’ve got serious commitment issues. You go through enough excruciating breakups after LT relationships and you come out an old hardened soul. Guys just seriously don’t get it when I say “as long...
January 2012
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“I meant to write about death, only life came breaking in as usual.”
– Virginia Woolf (via lovebug)
More musings/complaints from an introverted...
Having one of those weeks where I feel overwhelmed with my flaws. Let’s just get right into it. It is really bothering me that I don’t seem to like all the great-looking, nice guys that ask me out. After reading that, I realize I sound like a prick. What I mean is, I’m the type of girl who likes the chase. I hate how I freak out the second a guy likes me. Like I literally cannot...
Dear Coke Talk: On bedtime death panic. →
dearcoketalk:
Dear Coquette,
I’ve just recently come to the realization of my own mortality. In the time before I fall asleep, it absolutely terrifies me thinking not about how it will end, but that it ends, period. I know you’ve given this sort of advice before, but I can’t even get past this fear to…
Is Western culture just a function of group think?
It’s crazy how much one person can affect the culture of an organization. Bleh, when i say it like that, it sounds bland. I’ve heard the words “organization” and “culture” so many times i probably whisper them in my sleep.
But i’m sure anyone will agree that when you’re part of a group, the second you take one person out or add a person in it...
Leggo of your ego
I see all this talk about the ego, and I don’t totally get it. I see how if you attach your identity to material things, people, or particular roles then you’ll end up continuously reaching, like a donkey reaching for a carrot on a string. BUT, what the hell do you identify yourself with otherwise? I mean, I really feel as though who I am is constructed by my accomplishments and the...
On anxiety.
Anxiety is such an illusion. Really, what is is, and what isn’t isn’t. What will be will be.
Anxiety is just an attempt to be prepared for uncertainty. If you have controlled the variables that can be controlled, you should then recognize that what can’t be controlled is out of your hands and, thus, that it is not worth worrying about. It means trusting in your ability to act...
"future self"
I guess I always pictured that some stronger future adult me would be the one prepared and capable to achieve my dreams. I pictured someone who had everything sorted out, my ideal self. But, what I’ve come to realize is that that me is this me…in other words, the person that has to do those things to achieve my dreams is ME right now. There will not be a time when ...
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So here's my long-winded, somewhat unwarranted...
So, what was it? The fact that I found out he had a new girlfriend? Or the fact that I talked to him and suddenly began seeing his words for what they truly were: the words of a self-absorbed, arrogant, womanizer.
So, let’s be fair. He has some good in him. He has been brought up to have manners and function properly in society, and, above all, he has been brought up under parents who...
December 2011
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August 2011
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What I Wish I Could Say
You were everything I ever hoped to have. The first night we talked, you absolutely blew my mind. I’ve never been so fascinated to here what someone has to say, so interested to hear their thoughts. You are truly amazing, in all your talents, in everything you do. I don’t know why I did it. I don’t know why I felt that I had to say goodbye. I got scared. You were too much. We...
March 2011
14 posts
: Closing Cycles →
flashhappy:
This picture reminds me of life. We all may have different decisions but ultimately, we all move forward. Sometimes, people take a pause to second guess themselves, is this the right decision?
I do this all the time. I think when you start making decisions for yourself, you learn it’s…
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why do good?
I believe in making an effort to ease pain and suffering, if not for a moral obligation, for the spreading of positive energy in the world. I believe that suffering just leads to anger and sadness; such emotions gain negative potential energy and only create chain reactions of negative action. It is my responsibility, as a conscious being, to work against any negative inertia generated buy...
so impressed with my dash today
i try to keep a variety i dont like reblogging typical pretty pictures but they were all just so PRETTY
i think backs are so pretty.. like the spine….. as long as people aren’t anorexic
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